Positive Imaging

I couldn't find a positive imaging book that included my cheesecake healing idea, so instead I ordered the Fighting Cancer tape from Healing Journeys (thanks for the suggestion K2!). I have only listened to it a few times since it requires sitting still and concentrating and that's not something I do often. But, the point is to learn to slow down and take care of myself, so I've set a goal to listen at least 3 times a week (they suggest twice a day). It starts in your calm, happy place. Mine is on a grassy hill overlooking the ocean in Wailea in my private cabana on my comfy lounge chair watching the sea turtles swim by. I can hear their fins lapping the water as they slowly pass. Of course there is a bottomless pina colada with a slice of pineapple and a pink paper umbrella at my side. The tape says to picture a warm peaceful beam of light from the sky that grows larger until it embraces you. From the surrounding light you can feel a warm healing energy throughout your body. Then there are gentle light beings around you who offer healing powers. At first I pictured the aliens from Cocoon, but then the tape suggested they were people who have loved you. I am a big believer in guardian angels, so it was an easy switch from Cocoon aliens to visualize my grandparents, great grandparents and brother who are bathed in white light. They surround me and I feel their energy. The light soaks through my body and I visualize my cells. The tape suggests that the cancer cells are chaotic and confused. To me chaos is fast and suggests uncontrollable cells, so I prefer to picture the cancer cells as big, slow and dumb. I know it contradicts the aggressive nature of the disease, but it works better for my brain. So the big, slow, dumb cancer cells are attacked by my blood cells. I see the blood cells as stingrays that stick their barbed tails into the cancer cells. The tape suggests the cancer cells become small thread-like waste. I prefer to think of them as shriveling up to look like raisins. Then the raisins are whisked out of my body through the natural waste disposal system (I don't visualize that part). It is relaxing to listen to the woman's voice on the tape and kind of fun to visualize the destruction of my cancer cells. I'm not sure if it helps my healing, but it definitely can't hurt, right?

In hair news, I survived my first Chargers game wearing a wig. I chose the short, blonde wig and my section mates said my hair looked "sassy". I'll take that :) I noticed while going through the security line that everyone wearing a hat was asked to lift it up so security could look underneath. Now I'm rethinking my hat hair/Chargers hat combo for day games (the hat hair only goes around the sides of my head - the rest is covered by the hat - it's cooler than wearing a wig) I don't really want to be flashing my nearly bald head to a line of drunk fans. I'll be missing the home opener due to chemotherapy, and there's not another home game until October, so I have time to devise a solution. And just to be clear (since I've been asked) even though the signature color for breast cancer is pink, there is no way I'll be wearing a pink Chargers jersey. Pink has no place in the NFL (or any sport really other than golf, which is really more of an activity than a sport anyway...)

Thank you for all of your support. I've survived the hard part of round 3, so it's all down hill from here!